Old Story

today I'm feeling blues a little bit.
so skip on reading if you don't want to vomit.
here we go~

the feeling is real
if only it was mutual

force you,I won't
like me,you don't

I thought we will be together
and I will love you forever

from my eyes,please go away
in my heart,please don't stay

p/s : if you are reading this,I must admit. It's not easy to forget you.
and to other readers who make it till the end,don't judge me by this post.

akhirnya

aku lepaskan perasaan suka aku pada dia.
kerana yang harus aku cinta sebenarnya adalah DIA.

aku suka dia.
tapi aku takut murka DIA.

akhirnya~

cinta diam-diam
semoga tak terbenam

suka sunyi-sunyi
semoga diredhai~

reminiscing

it has almost been a year.
lots of thing happened.
exam
i entered my 4th semester this year.knowing that come May,I will have to face the exam, student's dearest friend.I cannot help but to feel scared.I failed quite a number of times for the past 2 year,why wouldn't I be scared?
her
and then come my story with 'her'.shame on me.I chose the wrong path to gain love.but Alhamdulillah,Allah gave me a chance to change.and so there was it,the break up thing.
but hey,I am not on the losing side as I thought I would be.losing her gave me chance to be closer to HIM.
promise
and oh yeah,this year I made a promise to one of my besties,that I would refrain myself from having the FB account.and on 27th of February, Hanis Mechan vanish from FB.
supposedly i will not have FB account for a period of 5years5months.But ey,there are 2 exceptions to that~ 1st,if I am about to ma**y(yep,you guess iit right!).surely I will use my FB account to announce it.second would be if I am leaving this world,then I hope someone will post it for me on my FB,'forgive this guy and pray for him'.

that's all~
p/s : Allah,forgive me and bless me.Give me your guidance,oh Allah the Most Merciful~

oh why not~

"mother,can you write down this number for me please?"
"sure.let me get some paper first."
"go on."
"right.01*-*******."
"got it.by the way,whose number is this?"
"mom,that's the person that I have fall in love with.and when you think I am ready,I would like you to call her.call her and propose her for me.will you do that for me mom?"
(laughing)."sure son.I'll do that"~

imagine this happen to you~
p/s : ini bukan petikan di antara saya dan mak saya.sumpah!

surat kepada jodoh

salam encik jodoh.apa khabar? moga sihat sentiasa hendaknya~
oh encik jodoh,saya bukannya ingin melupakan kamu.tapi saya mahu tumpukan perhatian saya kepada pelajaran dahulu.harap encik jodoh faham.
insyaAllah,apabila tiba masanya nanti,saya akan menghubungi encik jodoh.
biarlah buat masa ini saya memperbaiki kelemahan diri saya terlebih dahulu.
benar,saya tidak mungkin menjadi sempurna,tapi sekurang-kurangnya berikan saya waktu untuk mengutip pengalaman supaya saya boleh memimpin puan tak-ketahuan dengan baik.
sekali lagi,saya mohon maaf kepada encik jodoh seandainya encik jodoh terguris hati dengan tulisan saya~ :)

deja vu

menunggu bidadari
jangan disia-siakan penantian
waktu pencarian adalah saatnya membaiki diri

~mode : menjemput bidadari by seismic~

just happen to know

i really hope you read this anytime soon.

you see,things won't always go according to what we have planned.at least,that is what's happening to me.
only Allah knows what best for us,and perhaps at this time,this is the best that I could have asked for.

insyaAllah,if it's already written in Lauh Mahfuz,it will happen.don't know how,don't know when.just know that it will.

i totally respect your decision.just a bit shocked to see it coming out of nowhere.but hey,we're good right? not that we've become enemy aite? :))

sorry for all the troubles i've caused you.i wish you all the best.here and hereafter.
:))

advice from besties

when Allah knows you're ready for the responsibility of commitment
he'll reveal the right person under the right circumstances
you just wait patiently.. :)
can you?
don't waste your time searching and wishing
Grow and be ready,you'll see Allah will give you a love story far better than you could ever dream of! insyaAllah.. :)
kalau dia bukan utk kau,mesti ada yg lbih baik dari tu utk kau
insyaAllah
tak payah risau la
xpelah,ko tak payahla fikir sangat skrg ni
klau btul2 suka,kau doa la bnyak2
lagi pun,mybe kalau kau go on skrg ni nanti study pun entah ke mana

p/s : giving advice accordingly.that's what true friends are for.

alhamdulillah
terlerai segala kekusutan
thanks to you

you are not mine
i am not yours
we see how the endings gonna be

Allah,i do pray for the best
and only YOU know what's best for me
and for her

p/s : May Allah bless~

untuk budak itu~

to : you
aim : i don't know what are the possibilities that you will be reading this. but in case you didn't know what's the lala is going on,you may find the answer in this post.insyaAllah.

i like you.i mean really really like you.i am not forcing,i am just asking.my hope is for you to give me a chance.but then again,forcing someone to do what they don't like,is just so wrong on so many levels.what more if it involves feeling.

then i have come to a conclusion(or I thought so).

i will never again be messing around your life as if i am so damn desperate.
go and unwind yourself.
i am really sorry for the trouble that I have caused you all this while.

p/s : thanks for the friendship though.we still are,aren't we? ;)

the hardest battle is to versus yourself(edited from the famous HLOVATE,again)