all the best

this raya i've got a big surprise
0n the 28th of ramadhan,my family got a call
saying my brother is kinda critical(mind you he's in hospital klang n my father memang tak berapa reti la nak drive area KL-Selangor ni)
but then,Alhamdulillah la sebab my elder brother dah balik earlier that day.so dia la yang drive.
from the chart,it is stated that my brother had necrotizing fasciitis(bunyi gempak giler.ingatkan rare disease.sekali abang sendiri dapat sakit ni).oh ye,earlier dia undergo sigmoidal colonostomy.
so there i was,watching him.
TAPI SATU KEJADIAN YANG PELIK TELAH BERLAKU.
i watch him as if he is just another patient that i saw everyday in Sg. Buloh Hospital.
supposedly,i look at him as my brother la kan?
tapi entahlah.maybe i had mastered the part yang put-aside-emotional-feeling tu.
now,he's in ICU.not because his condition is worsening,but because it is much easier for the dr. to look over him.
all the best bro!

alhamdulillah
terlerai segala kekusutan
thanks to you

you are not mine
i am not yours
we see how the endings gonna be

Allah,i do pray for the best
and only YOU know what's best for me
and for her

p/s : May Allah bless~

jenguk2 RaMaDhAn

Ramadhan tidak pernah menghampakan
dalam menjalankan tugasnya sebagai penapis insan

di permulaannya,berlumba-lumba mereka beribadah
di pertengahannya,makin susut mereka yang istiqamah
di pengakhirannya,mereka lebih mengutamakan hiasan rumah

di mana silapnya?
iman yang kian berkurangan?
ganjaran yang kurang mempersonakan?
mungkin diri anda dapat menjawabnya

yang pasti,Allah tidak pernah jemu memberikan pahala
sehinggalah hamba itu sendiri jemu untuk beramal

minta moga dijauhkan
amin.

untuk budak itu~

to : you
aim : i don't know what are the possibilities that you will be reading this. but in case you didn't know what's the lala is going on,you may find the answer in this post.insyaAllah.

i like you.i mean really really like you.i am not forcing,i am just asking.my hope is for you to give me a chance.but then again,forcing someone to do what they don't like,is just so wrong on so many levels.what more if it involves feeling.

then i have come to a conclusion(or I thought so).

i will never again be messing around your life as if i am so damn desperate.
go and unwind yourself.
i am really sorry for the trouble that I have caused you all this while.

p/s : thanks for the friendship though.we still are,aren't we? ;)

the hardest battle is to versus yourself(edited from the famous HLOVATE,again)

think

things might not be the same after this
i am indulge in self-destructing mode
thinking of how wrong i had lead my life to

it's a shame really
tak kenal maka tak cinta
a famous malay idiom
thus,let us all ask ourself this one question

how deep is our love for Allah and Rasulullah?

i salute thus who can proudly said : 'I love Allah & Rasulullah with all my heart'
congrats bro or sis
whoever you are

cause that mean's you really know Allah & Rasulullah
me?

I can't go on and said that
it would be a lie then

if i really loves Allah & Rasulullah with all my heart,
then i would,in my best effort,strongly adhere to Islamic teachings

but currently,that is not what is happening
enough rambling & mumbling

i wanna build my soul altogether

p/s : kita dilahirkan dalam keadaan fitrah.setiap orang mahu kembali kepada fitrah.
dan fitrah setiap manusia adalah mencintai kebaikan!

SiR

it feel so wrong
like i don't belong~

and now i just want to disappear
from other people's sight

why am i doing this?
it's called self-reflection

i want to find the meaning of this life

p/s:
silly me
thinking that anyone would even care if I'm not around

who are you to them lah?

ce cuba v3.0

"Fatin,aku tanya sikit boleh?" Ila mula tarik kerusi sebelah Fatin.
"Kau nak tanya aku macam Iyan hari tu ke?" Fatin dah mula senyum.
Tak sangka pula Ila masih tak tidur lagi waktu Iyan datang malam tu.
Nasib baik dia tak buka hikayat waktu tu.Kalau tak,mau kena sumpah 7 keturunan sebab berahsia dengan best friend sendiri!
"Haish.Bukan la.Er,hari tu waktu A-an luku kepala kau,kenapa kau senyum? Kau angau eh?"
"Aku.Angau.Dekat.Mamat.Tu?" sepatah-sepatah dia menyebut. "Mana kau dapat la idea gila ni?" Fatin gelak sendiri. "Dari aku angau kat dia,lagi baik aku angau dekat kucing aku la." Kali ini,ketawa mereka sama-sama pecah.

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"A-an,cuti semester ni ada trip pergi Bukit Broga.Nak ikut tak?" Fadhil dah angkat-angkat kening.
"Aku rasa tak kut.Nak lepak rumah la," acuh tak acuh A-an menjawab.
"Alien mana dah brainwash kau ni bro?" giliran Ijoy pula menyoal. A-an dan trip.Macam aur dengan tebing!
"Oii.Mulut tu la pun.Kut betul aku kena culik nanti,siapa nak tolong cari aku?" kapur ditangan dibaling ke arah Ijoy.
"Ala,Fatin ada."
Serentak A-an,Ijoy dan Fadhil menoleh.
Iyan.

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Bunyi loceng menandakan berakhirnya sesi persekolahan penggal 1.Rata-rata pelajar dah mula mengemas barang.Kecuali A-an.Memang gaya dia.Kalau nak balik,anytime je.Sebab dia memang bukan jenis yang akan bawak banyak barang bila balik cuti penggal.
"Kau betul tak nak ikut ni? Sempat lagi kalau nak kami tunggu kau kemas barang." Fadhil masih tak berputus asa mengajak A-an.
'Yup,affirmative." Ringkas A-an menjawab.
"Ok la kalau macam tu.Kami gerak dulu la.Jaga diri elok-elok.Assalamua'laikum." Ijoy dah mula menapak.
A-an tak ambil masa lama untuk sampai ke stesen bas.Dah minta tolong dengan tukang kebun sekolah suruh dia hantarkan.
"Bang,tiket pergi Bentong dua." Dua keping not RM50 dihulurkan.Disambut dengan baki RM40.
Mata A-an melilau mencari seseorang di celah-celah manusia yang ada di stesen bas itu.Jumpa!
"Nah tiket."
"Baiknya."
"Well."
"Tapi tak cukup la."
"Kenapa?Ada bawak boyfriend ke?"
"Bukan la.Tu yang kat belakang tiang tu.Dia nak ikut.Nak merasa pergi pantai timur."
Mata A-an ditoleh ke arah tiang itu.Erk... Biar betul?