perhaps

the man who decided to change on the 12th hour dies on the 11th.
i want to change.
perhaps the best time is now,ey?

back to square 1,i don't mind
IF that will makes me a better person

i've done too many things that i'm not proud of before
now i just hope that i can change for the good

before death come
before i have to leave
before it's too late
before the 12th hour

ce cuba v4.0

"Eh,tolong aku jawab soalan ni kejap."
"Eh,soalan 3a tu guna formula yang mana eh?"
"Esok ada kelas tambahan Add Maths."
Hingar yang biasa didengar akhir-akhir ini.SPM beb! Siapa yang tak cuak.
Kalau nak dikutkan,memang sekejap masa berlalu.Rasa macam baru lagi menapak dekat sekolah ni.Alih-alih lagi sebulan dah SPM.Tup tap tup tap jawab paper,dah cuti panjang pulak.Fuh!

A-an.Senyum sendiri dia bila ingat nama yang satu ni.Suka buat gaya selamba badak dia tu tak kena tempat.Cakap orang eh?Aku ni pun apa kurangnya.

Iyan.Antara kawan rapat dia dekat sekolah ni.Macam mana boleh sangkut dengan A-an entah.Nak kata ada rupa,comel lagi Shin Chan.Tak faham aku!

Diri sendiri?Eheh.Tak main la benda-benda macam ni.Ye ke?

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p/s : Part 1 ends here! :)) thanks for reading(ada ke yang baca?) haha.. :))

just happen to know

i really hope you read this anytime soon.

you see,things won't always go according to what we have planned.at least,that is what's happening to me.
only Allah knows what best for us,and perhaps at this time,this is the best that I could have asked for.

insyaAllah,if it's already written in Lauh Mahfuz,it will happen.don't know how,don't know when.just know that it will.

i totally respect your decision.just a bit shocked to see it coming out of nowhere.but hey,we're good right? not that we've become enemy aite? :))

sorry for all the troubles i've caused you.i wish you all the best.here and hereafter.
:))

advice from besties

when Allah knows you're ready for the responsibility of commitment
he'll reveal the right person under the right circumstances
you just wait patiently.. :)
can you?
don't waste your time searching and wishing
Grow and be ready,you'll see Allah will give you a love story far better than you could ever dream of! insyaAllah.. :)
kalau dia bukan utk kau,mesti ada yg lbih baik dari tu utk kau
insyaAllah
tak payah risau la
xpelah,ko tak payahla fikir sangat skrg ni
klau btul2 suka,kau doa la bnyak2
lagi pun,mybe kalau kau go on skrg ni nanti study pun entah ke mana

p/s : giving advice accordingly.that's what true friends are for.

secret

bukan semua benda boleh dicoret diblog
itu tugas diari,bukan blog
terasa dengan beberapa orang
takkan nak dicerita pada semua orang

simpan sahajalah dalam hati
tiada manusia mampu merobek hati
kebahagiaan itu kebahagiaan jiwa
tak perlu harta,cukup sekadar jiwa

kawan bukan seorang
kawan yang lain-lain tu pun orang
jaga hati orang hati sendiri terasa
cukuplah,jangan biarkan terus merasa

on one evening

h : hello
s.s : hello
monolog dalaman - (peliknya suara!)

h : sape ni?
s.s : ni sape ni?
h : eh ni sape ni?
s.s : ni sapa?
h : ni bukan s.s ke?
s.s : ha la.
h : awat lain sgt suara?
s.s : haa? ni sapa?
h : em,em,ni hanis la.
s.s : peliknya
h : hang la pelik.cuba cakap loghat *****
s.s : (gelak)maybe sebab tak penah sembang kut.

and ada lagi la conversation between us.yang kat atas ni pun bukan 100% betul.because i don't quite remember it.

erk..
setahun matrik sama
setahun kuliah sama
sekali pernah naik bas yang sama
tapi tak pernah sembang.

p/s : hahaha.pelik gila hang cakap kl suesue soya oi!!!!!!!!!!!

guilty

rasa sangat bersalah dengan suesue soya.ampun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the end is near

dekat.hampir.apa yang dekat dan hampir?
mati.la,tu semua orang pun tahu.
benar.dan tadi,aku hampir mati! itu intipati sebenar ceritaku.
saat kaki tidak lagi berpijak dipasir,saat ruang nafas diisi air,saat kudrat telah tewas melawan,aku dan mati semakin hampir.
bukan hari ini ajalku,itu yang telah tertulis di Lauh Mahfuz.
bersukaria ada batasnya.nasihat keluarga ada hemahnya.sayang bapa tiada penghujungnya.kasih ibu buat selamanya.
aku menyesal.

inevitable

exam is just around the corner.
wait.isn't holiday sit just next to that corner?
i wonder.
pray for me. :))